there is always a night to remember, just as there is a moment that is unforgetable. Life has it way of dealing with issue even when it knows that this is true.
All my life, it has really been an experience to the future. And the future doesn’t seems to be getting closer to reality. Days in; days out, you think of people that means so much to you and hoe they affect or influence you in so many ways. You think of how many good or bad people you have met. Even the so call good girl has always put an innocent person in an emotional pain that could not be heal easily but later.
Why are the good girls hooked up with the bad guys? Sometime you are in love with a lady and yet not in a relationship with her. And yiu could be in a relationship with someone , yet not in love with the person.
Sitirical saying; Love is wicked! So wicked in a way that you can’t find someone to love you in return, for who you are, yet it cause you pains, agony and still make you shear tears. Yes! Tears of an unending cry that flow deep inside your heart, making you heartbroken.
Dear searchlight, I am penning my heart down tonight, the pain in my heart is overwhelming to cause me tears. Tears rolling down my cheek like a rainfall.
I wasn’t crying for love or heartbreak. No! But for the discomfort that love has brought me, overtime.
Few days ago, i met this parfect girl that live nearby, but the issue that brought us to be friends is what i cannot recall. She is among the so call “the good girls of any guy’s dream”. The type that you’ll see and day dream, and at night, it is sure that you will be lost in a pleasurable moment of togetherness in the paradise call love dream.
I call her longleaved flower because of her silky beauty. Strictly speaking, i’m always speechless and lost in my thought whenever i see her because her beauty is wonderful. So pure and captivating, even with her make-up, you can’t beat her for it. Especially when she shylishly smile, her simple molified and bringforth her beauty.
She got attitude; she got character. She got principle; she got intellect. She got pass. Though i make friends with principle, but making friend with this beautiful goddess was purposeful. I tried to be the best person i could be, but like others, she flew away to another hand, where she said, she has find comfort.
That is why I chose to pen this down today, oh searchlight, to please tell me what is wrong with me , that i cannot find a good girl that will love me for me. Why can’t i be loved the same way that i love? And when i found one, they turned out to be a nightmare in my life.
Now i’m in love. Deeply in love with this young innocent beauty. But why can’t this love see the light of the day? Why can’t she chose me?
Look at me searchlight. Look at me crying in pain of unacceptance. The love that i seek is here, nut cannot manifest. Just last night, i prayed; hopling that mu love will finds her like a lullaby, where i will sing her to sleep. But look at me now, on how loneliness i am, full of wishes that won’t come through.
Should i go and tell her that im secretly dying in love with her? I like her is an understatement but i respect her personal attitude. I wish i can climb the highest mountain and swim the deepest of ocean for her. I wish i could be the only man she deserve.
I love her. I want her. And i need her. I cannot define my overwheming joy whenever i’m with her. Seeing her smile is enough joy to my soul. An unlimited satisfaction.
And now, i’m so cold this morning and my soul is bitter because i found out that i have lost what could have be a better half of me.
Love is suppose to be a thing of happiness that build you a home inside the heart of your soulmate, when you are dejected or lonely. But rather, i’m feeling pain. Is it because that i’m slim? Nah! Then what could be wrong?
Well, if i can’t man it to convice her to love me, i will just let go and feed on the sole memory of love song, because it gladdens my heart anytime i listen to it.